The last two weeks have taught me a lot; about myself, about the people around me…about strength, and about my personal trainer Aimee at South Melbourne.
I have had many people ask me, both publicly and privately, how I can put myself out there, especially on social media, and reveal so many personal things that are so raw & so sensitive for me? I won’t lie, it’s probably one of the scariest & bravest things I have done! It has been confronting, deeply emotional, and at times paralysing. But at the sane time it has been liberating, cathartic and inspirational!
To bare the brunt of a cruel world about my size, has never been easy, and some of my experiences to date have been heartbreaking – like having a car of youths yell obscenities, and throw a bottle of coke at me from their car as I tried to go for a walk; like being laughed at as I walked in a ‘hip’ nightclub and being asked to “Go home, bush pig!”; like being stared and sniggered at on my daily commute in the train, and have people avoid sitting next to me…This behaviour did nothing to help or motivate me – if anything, it drove my spirit into the ground – it just compounded the self hate I had for myself – it only spurred my reliance on comfort eating. At least food didn’t make me feel like I didn’t belong…and for a moment took away the pain.
But that was then…I have received so much positive feedback, support & encouragement that all that negativity doesn’t rule my heart & mind anymore…I have achieved things in the last 2 weeks I would have not thought possible. I have learned that in the right environment, with the right people and the right mindset, we can achieve anything!
I had an amazing experience at the gym last week; Aimee, my trainer set me a challenge – she loaded the gym ‘prowler’ with weights and asked me to push it from one side of the gym to the other. It felt like I was pushing a car – and although it was hard, I was determined to do it! As I pushed, I could hear the RBT crew screaming out words of encouragement. Just the sound of their voices, and the energy & kindness motivated me -to push through the mental block, and smashed my set. When it was done, I literally broke down and cried telling them that 2 weeks ago, there was NO CHANCE I could have done that! The hugs and support I got were amazing! And Aimee didn’t let up, she asked me to give her two more rounds – and I did! I know now that I am truly part of the RBT family – these amazing people have shown me nothing but love, understanding and support. Has it been easy? Hell no! Worth it? More than words can say…
I am so proud of myself, and how far I have come. I’ve decided to let the old Maria go – it’s time to say goodbye old girl! The new Maria is full of strength, determination and gratitude – and a lot happier for it. I am so blessed to have my RBT family – and all of YOU, my supporters joining me on my journey.
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